September 6: Bobby Russ
One of the things that I miss the most from Renee is her smile and laugh. There were times I would tickle her
purposefully. Then again, other times it was on accident when I was rubbing her feet or her sides. Just seeing
her giggle. It was one of those things that I cherished so much. There were times we would talk and joke about
things. Sometimes I just enjoyed tickling her. She would resist at times, but knew how to get me laughing too.
There was a delicate balance at times. I loved making her smile and making her laugh.
In the last week of her life, I remember her and I talking as well as laughing many times. Sometimes, we had to laugh so we weren't as frustrated when things happen. For example, her last facebook posts were two jokes. The first of them relating to a situation we have all seen recently. At the start of the virus situation, stores and other places where putting big X's to designate 6 feet apart. But...Road Runner knows better. I can imagine her laughing over seeing the post. The second one I won't quote from, but it was one that made her chuckle.
Finally, Renee knew me very well. My brain is almost always going. I'm thinking of Plan Z just in case. I was the planner and she was the side of our relationship that was more spontaneous. It worked well together as we both planned for the future while still treasuring the day we had together. It's something I miss. We had bucket list items that we checked off together. I'll talk more about those in future memories, but it's something we planned and lived in the moment.
She tagged me in the last image I had with this memory about my own brain. She loved the way that it worked, but to the outsider, it looked confusing. It was like when you have so many tabs open on a browser and music was coming from one of them, but you don't know which one. My trains keep moving through a 3d landscape at all times. I always felt like she appreciated the way I thought. It was a humorous way to describe me. I will miss her humor, her smile, and her laughter, but am glad that I got a chance to experience it.
Her laugh was so contagious 💕🤗