August 8: Bobby Russ
Today was my first day back to work since her death. It was a day of mixed feelings. It was good to feel like I was contributing something positive. I have been told by several people that I am a great supervisor and that I was missed. Like Renee, I often forget how much of an impact that I make upon others. It was one of our shared flaws. I just do my best because that's all I know how to do. We just do our job... or our vision of what one should do in the job.
This leads me to a memory of her. It was often a joke that Walmart was our demanding mistress. She never complained about it and always gave her all. As a salaried member of management, it wasn't like she was ever off the clock, but she always would take people's texts, phone calls, messages via messenger,etc. Day... Night... It didn't matter. It was rare that she ever didn't answer.
I learned so much about Walmart policies and procedures just from hearing her help others on the phone. She was always patient with people even if it was the 20th time she had told them the exact same thing. The pause button worked well on our TV. Even if she had fallen asleep for a shift to start at 5 am, she would want to answer a phone call help request. I remember one night kissing her softly telling her that her phone was ringing. She woke gingerly and answered helping someone with clearing a problem with the recycler.
She told me how appreciate she was that I understood and didn't get upset at her for it. I wrapped my arms around her and told her that I loved her. She said I love you more. I told her I love you mostest. She replied I love you to infinity and I replied "...and beyond"